Where has the time gone???

I still can't believe I'll be 30 on Tuesday. To top it off, my big boy will be starting pre-k that same day. Drive the knife in harder will ya! He is SO stressed right now, I'm surprised he's not bald. He is freaking out, doesn't want to start school because he can't read and can't write all of the alphabet. Try explaining to a 4 year old that he doesn't need to be perfect. Poor kid, he inherited my freakish perfectionist ways :( I am not that bad though. The kid won't eat food that is "messed up", he won't eat chips from torn bags, won't eat bread that is kind of broken, things like that. SO young yet so mature. I feel bad for him, because I feel his pain. Hopefully "big school" can break him of that. Its going to be so nice not having daycare expense though, we still have it for Emma but we'll be saving $400 a month! Woo HOO!! Emma is well, she's as dorkie as always. Here are a few pics!

Fourth of July

We had a great 4th of July weekend! Thursday night, we went spend the night at my favorite place, Lake Fausse Point. There are great cabins out there, very nice and relaxing. So, we fished a little, played a little and slept a little. Friday we invited the nieces to come sleep over, and let them swim all day. Saturday we went to my friend's 30th birthday party, ate a lot, drank a lot and Rylan got to stay sleep at a friend's house for the first time. Sunday, was a day of nothingness. Loved it! Hope you all had a great one too. Here are few pics.

Weekends!!!

So, we had a pretty decent weekend. Saturday, we travelled 211 miles (without the kids, YIPEE) to go to my boss's camp in Toledo Bend. We actually had a really good time. The place is SUPER nice, we had our own room , big ass TV, a huge warf, party barge, fishing poles and all the birds and relaxing you want. So, we got a speeding ticket on the way there, but I can fix that, I still have connections, since quitting the Sheriff's Office about 4 years ago. I was a cop for 7 years, did you know that? ANYWAY, it was a funfilled day, drinking beer and relaxing :) But yesterday, when we got home, it was back to normal. I missed my babies :) Emma was glad to see me, she actually took like 5 steps towards me. Go Emma!!! After putting the kids down for naps, at 2:00 I began to doze off but was awakened by my entire house rattling and shaking. I looked outside at the gale force winds, thinking that the weather dude forgot to tell me about this hurricane!! My trampoline was in a tree. Another tree was in my brand spanking new fence, and branches were everywhere. Scary. But, no one was hurt, we've survived worse and I'm sure will get much worse this year. Anyway, hope you all had a good one. It'll be a busy week, Birthday party Thursday, Birthday Party Saturday. Woo HOO!

MAKING CHANGES...

Ahhh, changes, they are a coming. I've been feeling so unlike myself lately. I NEVER feel sorry for myself, no matter what I've been through in life, I rarely sit and say oh woe is me. But, I think its time! I need to focus more time and energy on ME. I've been working nonstop pretty much 10 hours a day. I never get home in time for supper. I spend most of my weekends, being a lazy ass because the weeks just drained me. Well, from now on, I will work on what I get paid to work on. I refuse to go above and beyond anymore, unless it comes to my family or friends. I refuse to dwell on people who don't appreciate it. I've decided to make quite a few changes to my life, including friends, work habits, etc. I want to spend more time with my children, and not obsessing about the crumbs Emma leave behind when eating a cookie. Or the mess in the living room with Rylan is playing with his trains. Try not to be so OCD when it comes to the dishes in the sink. Not sweat the small stuff. I really need to make a change, seriously. I just get so down and out about STUPID things, when I should be focusing on the more important. Me and my babies :) Hope you all have a wonderful week and weekend.

Work, work, work...

Seems like that's all I do these days!!! I've been given a promotion, that feels like I've taken on the entire company! They just released my old boss to a new position, and hired a new guy, who apparently thinks that his job is to delegate work to others!! So, for all practical purposes, I am the new chief pilot. Haha! Anyway, I much prefer being busy than just sitting here doing nothing all day. Makes the day go by much faster.

Mother's Day was cool! I got a pool, set it up and six hours later, we were swimming! Rylan spent the whole afternoon in that sucker Sunday (with sunblock of course). I've never seen him so happy / worn out at the same time! I can't believe I finally found something to disperse his energy!! It really works! Emma is also great. She is now standing on her own, and will happily play patti cake with you and clap for you. She says "BYYYYYYE BYE" in the sweetest voice you can possibly imagine and she also says "Mom and DADDY". She is such a sweetie pie!!!! I am so glad that my kids get along so well. You should see Rylan taking care of his sister, he absolutely adores her and EVERYTHING he does is funny to Emma. He talks to her, plays with her, entertains her and they absolutely love it! Not to mention the dog, Clifford. Emma adores him, he makes her laugh and laugh. Speaking of dogs, my Australian Shepherd had EIGHT puppies, seven of which we managed to save. She is a great mother, I couldn't get over the way she cared for them, like she was a veteran, and it was her first litter! Anyway, now I have 7 puppies to give away. They are pure breed, beautiful but I just don't want the hassle of selling them.

Anyhoo, hope you all reading this have a WONDERFUL day. And here are a few pics for your entertainment.

Not the blues, the blahs....

I don't know what's wrong with me lately. I'm just not in to anything. I'm not depressed, just blah. I know I shouldn't complain, life could be so much worse as they always say. But, at this point, its like when do I get a break??? If its not money, its family. If its not that, its illness. I just don't know, I know no ones life is perfect by any means, but why on Earth can't mine just be a little closer to perfect. Thank God for my children, otherwise I don't know what I would do. Just wanted to vent a little.

The Thumbsucking Baby...

This is just the funniest thing EVER! Emma Claire, only sucks her thumb when she's tired, so I thought. It seems as though she has developed an association between her blanky and her thumb. Every time I give her her blanket, whether or not she's tired or playing, she sticks the thumb in her mouth. One minute, she is fine, the next, thumbsucking away!!! Its too cute!!! But, not like its a pacifier. I easily took that paci away from Rylan. How the hell can I take her thumb away, cut it off???? Haha!! Anyway, she only sucks it when she's tired or has her blanket, so its not a big deal YET.

I ate supper at 9:00 last night, woke up looking like a freaking blowfish. I have GOT to get off my ass. Only 10 pounds to go, but 10 is still 10!!!!!!!!!!!!!

And all the men out there, should take a lesson from my son